My poor John!

Today was not an average day in Salem, for there were hangings of our loved ones. The goodwives I mind not at all, but seeing Rebecca Nurse and John Proctor up to hang shook my nerves. Rebecca Nurse was one of the sweetest people I have ever known and I loved her dearly. She was such a kind person and always knew how to keep a positive mood. She was exactly what Salem needed and now she's gone, what we'll do without her is unknown! So many people loved her so dearly, her hanging is a serious misfortune. But I know that I would so much rather voice my opinion on John Proctor! How is it that he has been hanged? So many people have such great love for such a handsome man, I just don't understand how this has been allowed. I loved John Proctor with all of my heart, and I know he loved me too! How I would have so much rather seen Elizabeth being pushed off of that stand to be killed! She is an evil woman who never deserved a man as great as John, whereas I did! I am so involved in this town, as is he, and we would have been so perfect together. But no, John had to go stand up in front of cort and admit to having an affair with me, ugh! What an overwhelming day it has been. I will go to rest now, sleep is much needed.